Anticipation – YS Day 3
Today was a weird day for me. Most of my friends went to church instead of sessions this morning so I was on my own. My soul was still tender from yesterday and just walking into the main session room was pretty emotional.
They started the session with an illusionist who escaped from a glass tank. I tried to hold my breath as long as she did – twice. It was what I would normally think of as pretty cheesy, but, for some reason, when she finally burst out of the top of the tank, I was near tears.
After her, they brought out Shane and Shane for some worship. By the second song, I was a mess. I barely noticed a guy come in and ask if the seat next to me was taken. He looked into my face and just sat down. It’s as if there was a buffer around me of silence as he sat next to me and obviously didn’t want to disturb whatever I was experiencing.
The speaker was a guy from Soul Survivor that I didn’t stay for. I was as deep into grief and joy as I could be at the time and I just didn’t have it in me to listen to anyone but God.
The grief was for the hurts I had felt in youth ministry, which for some reason were resurfacing. I DID see a lot of old faces and had a lot of memories of my early ministry years. The Joy was from the blessings I see that have been there for a while.
I left there wanting nothing more than to go home and sing with Cathy. Even as I write, I am fighting the urge to just pack up and head home.
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BrianW / 23 Nov 2008 / 7:43 PM